What is Depression | Depression for me?
Most of people believe that depression is like crying. Some people think that depression is sadness. Some of them think that depression is dressing in black. But people are wrong. Depression is a constant feeling of being dead. Being dead to life. It like we arise in the morning just to go back to bed again.
Depression is described by some as the absence of feeling, or an inability to feel.
Depression for me
I first experienced depression at the age of 19. At that time below things I observed.
- I feel my body felt heavy. Like concrete.
- Sometimes I felt like I used to be swimming under the water with weights attached to every limb, which every stroke was a huge effort.
- Every time I felt hard to breathe.
- I felt tired all the time. Bone tired. To my marrow. regardless of what proportion sleep I had.
- I realize that my brain didn't work for me. Some times I couldn’t remember even simple things.
- I had little motivation.
- I feel Colors faded. Everything seemed grey and dark.
- Even my taste buds aren't working for me.
- Sometimes I had a body pain in my heart and mind that felt unbearable.
That time I even have decided to go for online counseling, to beat psychological state issues. Then my online psychiatrist suggested that I'm battling depression then he provides me depression counseling the overcome this issue.
I have also used to read some motivational books, depression quotes, and also I use to listen to some classical music that helps me to deal with depression.
